i wish you could see her face!

We spent the day with "baby love" yesterday.  I so can't take just how adorable she is!  This teenie little one has a smile that will light up a room.  She glows.  She did so well with us at the park.  I felt like an insanely fertile person the two separate times I was asked how close in age BL and Augie are.  "12 months", I replied.  We spent the day rotating carrier to stroller and tag teaming.  It was so sweet to watch my husband cuddle and talk to her.

Paul spent most of the day with Rosie who went on her first roller coaster and two log flume rides.   My heart was probably racing more than hers was!  Augie got to play in the ball pit, which, at this point I am sure is what his heaven would look like.  He was so mad that we took him out he screamed for 10 minutes. 

We had a pretty good ride home..and then, madness descended.  It started with Augie and then spread to BL.  Over stimulating a "normal" baby would cause a great disruption.  I remember those days with Rosie.  Baby Love has had a rough life so far.  Between me (new person), not being on a nap schedule, not being in home environment, etc etc etc, it got a little hairy around the end of the day.  The most difficult part was not knowing how to soothe her and figuring out how to manage other children.  

Like so many foster kids, her story is a tough one.  The more I research about her obstacles, the more difficult her little life seems.  With regards to our family, I hold on to the confidence that God has everything in control.  And, we get to spend the day with her again tomorrow.  This time, completely on my own, without the support of my husband.  The reality of parenting +1 is not without challenge.  More that a few occasions I have asked myself "am I nuts for wanting this?".  Again, I trust in the story of how God has woven our lives together.  For whatever the future holds, Jesus, I trust in you!