The Long Wait

Knowing that the boys are likely leaving and then waiting for that to happen, it's grueling.  While a traditional love relationship would want to hang on, this sacrificial love relationship wants to let go.  Pull the band aid off.  Let's get it over with.

Add to that the uncertainty.  My greatest hope for the boys is the end up where they are supposed to be forever.  If that is with us, we promise them forever.  If that is with mom, unfortunately, the future is less certain.   Dear Lord, keep them from bouncing. 

I saw mom's "apartment" for the first time.  Only from the outside and the door way, but enough.  Enough to be fearful for them of them having enough.  Dear Lord, protect and provide for them. 

Christmas shopping for children that could be gone a month or two after is a bit tricky too.  Dear Lord, help us not to be materialistic, help us instead to shower them with love.

And Lord, for my family, I pray.  Give us peace, direction and aid for this long, long winter.

'Da Boys

Well, at this moment they are on the fast track for home.  Instead of transferring the case to adoption, the court & county gave mom a 6 month extension. 

To my surprise this does not mean they will be in our care for the next six months.  The county is hoping to start overnight visits as early as Christmas and then fast track them home by January or February.  

I am told this also depends on counselors clearing mom, which hasn't happened yet. 

We have slowly started to let them go, if only a little.  Our kids are fully aware and we have promised a fun weekend away for our family if and when they leave.   

The hardest part of letting them go is knowing the case could change at any moment.  I think it is pretty universal that we want to have a plan for our lives and our future.  In the world of foster care, there are no guarantees.  

So for now, our boys' room is full of 3.  Only God knows for how long.