The Long Wait

Knowing that the boys are likely leaving and then waiting for that to happen, it's grueling.  While a traditional love relationship would want to hang on, this sacrificial love relationship wants to let go.  Pull the band aid off.  Let's get it over with.

Add to that the uncertainty.  My greatest hope for the boys is the end up where they are supposed to be forever.  If that is with us, we promise them forever.  If that is with mom, unfortunately, the future is less certain.   Dear Lord, keep them from bouncing. 

I saw mom's "apartment" for the first time.  Only from the outside and the door way, but enough.  Enough to be fearful for them of them having enough.  Dear Lord, protect and provide for them. 

Christmas shopping for children that could be gone a month or two after is a bit tricky too.  Dear Lord, help us not to be materialistic, help us instead to shower them with love.

And Lord, for my family, I pray.  Give us peace, direction and aid for this long, long winter.