giving love

I had a few moments of solitude this afternoon while driving for an errand.  I was contemplating how little I feel right now.  I am pouring all of myself into my children and I have hardly any time to consider my own needs.  I try to make time for prayer...it happens a few times a week.  I stuff food in my face every so often, like a thief having to hide from my preschool beggars.  Hair, make up?  Forget it.  Showers are my sacred time and offer another 10 minutes of stolen solitude.  

precious little moments

Do I need more me time? Sure.  Do I need more date nights?  Yes.  

I have been warned, probably by my father, not to give up too much of myself that I don't know who I am without my children.  I get the gist of this idea.  But we also have a God who wants us to be emptied for love of Him.  He also wants us to find our identity in Him - and I am still working on this.  

I am so grateful to be in a place where I feel all this pouring out it for the good of my soul.  I have been loving my children.  I have been connecting with them.  Sharing special little moments here and there.  Thank you Jesus for taking over my life and guiding me, leading me, one day at a time, closer to your heart.  Thank you for helping me love better, give better, serve better.