Last week was complete chaos. We drove our family through the night twice. On the way home I had precious conversation with my husband in the still and quiet of the middle of the night. Somewhere around 3.30am and somewhere in the middle of PA, I had a couple of realizations with the help of my husband.
I am still processing all of this.
The idea of therapy scares the poop out of me. I feel above this. For so many reasons I have wanted to avoid this my whole life.
If it will help me be a better mom...then I will do it. I must do it.
My hope is it will be for a brief time in my life. With an end goal. To help me understand the source of my anger. Is it nature? Is it nurture? Are these issues related to infertility? Adoption? Something else?
I feel I have spiritually dealt with issues of my past. The last two years have been huge for forgivenss and undstanding.* Now it is time to talk it through and look at it from a different prespective. I am thankful for friends who have humbly shared their journeys with me and who have given me the courage to move foward.
* Two specific things for me:
1. The Unbound Freedom in Christ conference with Neal Lozano. I so highly recommend Neal, his book and this conference.
2. Padre Pio. His intercession has been huge in helping me see things with clarity in my life. I have no specific recommendations, but whatever you can read, do, pray to initiate a relationship with this amazing confessor and reader of souls can only benefit you.
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If you feel the need for treatment, do it. I had been in therapy for over 10 years. The last therapist has been the best and I have been better than ever. Let me know if you want any recommendations. :)
Prayers for you.
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